Overcoming Mental Illness

It’s been about eight months since this blog first started on Blogspot.

It’s been about five months since this blog first moved across to Wordpress.

It’s been about three months since this blog first took up residence this domain.

Throughout this time I have been fighting hard to understand, control, combat and manage my mental illnessesas well as my physical ones. I have battled throughout the majority of this time by myself, with some steadfast wonderful people in the wings to support and offer friendship at times when I thought no-one cared. Then there are the wonderful people who I have met through the blog, and have commented and supported it (and me) throughout it’s various guises.

So it’s nice for me to actually be able to post some good news for a change :)

As most of you are aware things have been ludicrously tough for me over the last eighteen months. Since getting my depression, self harm and social anxiety under control in late 2006/early 2007 things just spiralled unfairly out of control. I have battled and fought hard to make things work, but every time I got anywhere it was almost as if fate had decided I was not deserving of it and consistently threw up barricades and fresh hurdles for me to attempt to vault over. I fell at some, and others I am no where close to overcoming - rather sidling around them hoping no-one would notice and I’ll deal with them in twenty or so years (that’s even if I do!)

Well, all this hard work which has exhausted me physically, emotionally and mentally to the point that even seven days ago I was thinking of giving up,  has paid off a little.

On Monday I was offered one of those jobs you’d be an idiot to turn down.

Just five days ago now…and tomorrow, everything changes, yet again!

For tomorrow I leave Melbourne indefinitely, bound for Sydney for some training and then onto Alice Springs - slap bang in the red heart of Australia - to take up full time employment.

Now I’ve never been to Sydney before.

 

Nor have I ever been to Alice Springs before.

 

So the thought of moving there is a little daunting. Plus, it hasn’t sunk in at allyet so come tomorrow I’ll probably be a humongous barrel of nerves and flighty feelings…then when I get to Alice things will be very interesting.

New town.

New job.

New place to live (when I actually find one - man, to have a “home” again!)

Same old hallucinations to keep me company :)

So for a little while I expect this blog veer away from the ‘wacky-crazy-kinky mental illness awareness stuff; with the odd bit of nudity thrown in for fun times’ into more of a ‘wacky-crazy-kinky travelogue of Addy’s escapades in Sydney and Alice; with the odd bit of nudity thrown in for fun times’.

I’m gonna be exploring a new city for the next week, the biggest in Oz, and far more recognisable to people around the world then wee little Melbourne is. So hopefully there will be pictures, ya never know.

So yeah, things have just got very interesting; daunting, frightening and a mite anxiety inducing - but very interesting in another way also; exciting, awesome and a mite smile inducing.

It’s funny how life is sometimes.

For the first time since February 2007 - I have a future “life“, rather than merely a future “existence” :) 

Until Sydney…be safe, be well, be happy.