Panic and Planes
Oh the extravagant joys of panic attacks, odious things that leave you a trembling wreck at the base of a tree. Not quite sure exactly what set it off today, I’ve given up trying to identify my myriad of triggers and ignition switches at the moment. Absolutely bizarre day yesterday leaping and jiving from mania to depression and back again and back again in a matter of hours - today, casually strolling down the street and then BAM panic attack. So now I’m seeking solace in a wee internet cafe before retreating to my bed for the remainder of the night (yep, fortunately I was able to find somewhere for this evening, which is good, better than sleeping under a tree, trust me, anywhere’s better than under a tree!)
Such an odd start to the year really, odd as in not very good at all, as in not happy in any way, but still a start to the year it is. I am hoping to post an article on panic/anxiety over the next couple of days - I had hoped it would be ready this evening, but alas in a cruel twist of fate (getting used to those now) a panic attack prevented a post on panic appearing today.
I find that quite delightfully amusing, in a rather twisted way, to be honest :-)
[...and in other news I should be on a plane leaving Australia next Wednesday (AEST) so that's something I suppose]
January 4th, 2008 at 3:08 pm
You are leaving Australia? Where are you going?
Very soon as I have the time I am going to go backwards in your blog to learn more about you.
I’m so sorry that you had the panic attack. Don’t think of it as the start of a new year…it’s just something that happened and doesn’t reflect the potential this new year brings.
January 5th, 2008 at 6:52 pm
I am leaving Australia, not that I really want to, just don’t have any other choice. I’m flying back to the UK next Wednesday and trying to come to terms with the move as we speak, somewhat difficult this time around.
I’ve had so many panic attacks in my life I’m not taking it as a signal for the new year, I refuse in fact to believe it’s 2008 just yet, and this is just a continuation of last year ;-)
January 6th, 2008 at 11:33 am
Nice Blog. I have been looking for blogs and such that I can relate to. I invite you to come to my blog and join me in my delightful spiral into death depression and nothing.
Thanks for your time. Remain happy ?